My Old Memories tries to kill me!

I swear to God I did what I could
I practically begged you
I pretended everything was fine
a soul sacrifice, an American nightmare
I'd rather be dead
I'll bet you money as you're running to the bathroom
you barely started drinking but your beauty never stopped you
you died in California by the sulfur and the sea
I guess I never should have loved you
but I do forever because you loved me
if you were gonna leave this world how could it be without me...
-Pierce The Veil, The Boy Who Could Fly